Carrie Underwood is opening up about motherhood and the pregnancy struggles she’s faced along the way.
The country superstar, who is currently pregnant with her second child, revealed Sunday morning that she had suffered three miscarriages in the past two years.
“I’d kind of planned that 2017 was, you know, going to be the year that I work on new music, and I have a baby,” Underwood remarked during an interview on CBS Sunday Morning. “We got pregnant early 2017, and didn’t work out.”
During that difficult time, Underwood said she leaned into her faith.
“In the beginning, it was like, ‘Okay, God, we know this is, just wasn’t Your timing. And that is all right. We will bounce back and figure our way through it.’ ”
However, that outlook became increasingly difficult to maintain after Underwood suffered a second miscarriage in 2017, and then a third in 2018.
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“At that point, it was just kind of like, ‘Okay, like, what’s the deal? What is all of this?’ ” Underwood told CBS News’ Tracy Smith, adding that even then she felt “afraid to be angry” as the couple had already been “so blessed” with a wonderful child, 3½-year-old son Isaiah Michael.
“My son, Isaiah, is the sweetest thing. And he’s the best thing in the world. And I’m like, ‘If we can never have any other kids, that’s okay, because he’s amazing.’ And I have this amazing life. Like, really, what can I complain about? I can’t,” she continued. “I have an incredible husband, incredible friends, an incredible job, an incredible kid. Can I be mad? No.”
But when she thought she might be suffering a fourth miscarriage, she finally “got mad.”
Underwood went on to explain in the CBS interview that one of her most emotional moments from that time came as she cuddled with her son and thought, “Why on Earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can’t have a kid? Like, what is this? Shut the door. Like, do something. Either shut the door or let me have a kid.”
“And for the first time, I feel like I actually I told God how I felt,” she added. “That was like a Saturday — and the Monday I went to the doctor to, like, confirm, another miscarriage. And they told me everything was great!”
She said, “He heard me.”
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“You might be wondering or asking, ‘Carrie, why is your tour starting in May?’ Well … yay!” she said in the video, revealing balloons spelling out “BABY” above her head. “Mike and Isaiah and I are absolutely over the moon and excited to be adding another little fish to our pond.”
Underwood has been open in the past about how much parenthood has changed her, and some of her more touching moments have directly involved her son.